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“Twisdom” (It’s not what you think.)

Dear God,

Please forgive me.

I know it was wrong. But sometimes I can’t control the stray thoughts that enter my brain, even during church. I mean, shouldn’t my brain know that certain thoughts don’t belong in the sanctuary? I think so.

I was listening to the sermon. Honestly. But when Pastor talked about true wisdom versus false wisdom, I couldn’t help but make the connection to writing. I don’t think that’s what my Pastor intended. Okay, I’m almost positive he didn’t.

But, it’s really not my fault. Actually, if you break it down, I think it’s my Pastor’s fault. The title of his sermon was “Twisdom”. Immediately, I groaned (inside my head, of course). I thought, how in the world is he going to connect wisdom on Twitter to my spiritual life? I’m positive there are no prophecies or scriptures referring to Twitter. (I’ve never tried to solve the Bible Code, though, so who knows, maybe there is some prophecy I don’t know about.)

It turned out he wasn’t referring to Twitter at all. But can you understand why I got sidetracked? Especially with all the Twitter vocabulary fluttering through the blogosphere. I’m sure you think it’s getting a little ridiculous too. Even up in Tweaven.

Sorry. Back to Twisdom. I mean wisdom. Pastor said that true wisdom is humble and teachable. And that false wisdom is basically acting like a jerk and showing a know-it-all attitude. 

And that, God, is when I thought about my writing journey. How the more I learn, the more I realize how much more there is to learn. The more great books I read, the more I realize how much harder I have to work. Humble. Teachable. Good things to be.

That’s how I want to be. And writing shouldn’t have been the first thing to pop into my mind, because I need all the humbleness and teachableness I can muster when it comes to being a parent, a wife, a friend.

So, in closing. If you could strike that stray thought from my record, I’d appreciate it. And while I’m at it, I should apologize for the time I used my sermon bulletin to list plot points.

       Twamen

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Emotion in writing (and reading)

My kids all know I’m a sap.

I read them picture books when they were younger. And there were certain ones, I just couldn’t get through without my voice cracking and tears forming. And it was because of the emotion behind the moment in the story. And all the build up leading up to that point. (The worst were books about how much a parent loves their child. I seriously can’t get through those.)

But my kids knew that about me. They knew the signs. ( heaving chest, cracking voice, pauses…) They might have gotten impatient, but they waited.

I also thought it was due to lack of sleep caring for babies and toddlers, but I still haven’t outgrown it. So, I don’t think I can blame pregnancy hormones or being tired anymore.

But my neices don’t know this about me yet. I watched them today and the oldest asked me to read to her. I said yes. (Of course.)

As I read the Lion King, I got to the point where Simba realizes his responsibility and Mufasa talks to him. And, yup. It happened. The cracking, wavering voice. I think I did a pretty good job covering it up. (I have no idea what my neice was thinking. Probably that I was sick or something.)

I also know if I need a good cry, all I have to do is watch a commercial (never mind the actual show) of America’s Home Makeover.

What books make you cry when reading to your children? Or, when reading an adult, middle grade or YA, what kind of scenes move you to tears?

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How I really feel about the Kindle

The Kindle.  Kapow!

I feel like nothing else in the publishing world in the past year has caused such a stir as e-readers and e-books.

If you couldn’t tell from my post yesterday, I’m torn. I think there are some really cool things about the Kindle especially if you are someone who reads a lot and wants to make notes on what they read. Oh, let me see if I can think of a few people. Um, teachers. And, how about editors and agents. And I can’t forget commuters. I would invest in a Kindle if I rode the train into work every day.

But I don’t.

I love to read. I love a good story. Even though being a writer has made it much harder for me to find a good book. I need a light switch on the side of my head to turn off  and just be a reader again. But that’s beside the point.

When I read, I want a book, to hold, to doggy-ear, to lose under my bed, to pass on to a friend, to run my fingers across the slightly fuzzy pages, to smell the freshness of a new book or the musty smell of a book that’s older than my grandparents. I have memories, childhood memories attached to books. And that will not be easy to forget.

And I do think the Kindle will only last until something bigger and better comes out that does everything. It can be called Super-texter-camera-phone-computer-book. And I probably won’t be able to afford one until they are on the way out. I don’t even have a cell phone yet. (Actually, sometimes I carry a very realistic toy one around and talk into it just to feel cool. Not really.)

I consider myself pretty flexible. (Don’t ask my kids for verification.) I’ll go with the times. But if libraries become a thing of the past, I will be snuggled in a corner by candlelight the woodstove – reading real books from long ago.

And that’s just the reader side of me.

The writer side of me? I hope libraries and publishers and bookstores are able to keep up with the changing times and don’t get left in the dust.

So. Did you catch all that subtext from my post yesterday? If you didn’t, you’ll have another chance to practice on Friday.

Where do you stand on the Kindle? Do you have one?

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First Encounters of the Kindle Kind

It winked at me.

A thrill ran through my body. A blush heated my cheeks. 

It flashed its screen and exposed its skin just so I’d want to pick it up and run my fingertips over it.

And it worked. My heart fluttered. But I didn’t say anything and shoved my hands in my pocket. But wait. I wasn’t wearing pockets, so I picked up my glass of water and sipped, trying to avert my gaze. 

But the Kindle had reached celebrity status. Papa razzi stalked it. I’d seen pictures of it in its fat jeans. In one tabloid, it was caught slumming with the Nook on New Year’s Eve. They were teaming up in a new movie called: Kindle and Nook take down Manhatten.

But I had to know. Did it deserve it’s fame? Just one little dance wouldn’t hurt. One little kiss.

I said the word. It leapt into my hands and seemed to fit perfectly. It whispered secrets in my ear. If I would make it mine, I could highlight text. I could make notes on books I was reading. I could transfer those notes to my computer. I could purchase e-books from Amazon while in the car or the bus or at the beach. I could read teenage vampire books and no one would ever know. Gasp!

I was impressed. But I was a writer! A poor struggling artist with not enough change in my pockets to purchase such a gadget. My old copies of Nancy Drew and Black Stallion with their worn covers lingered in the back of my mind, tugging at my heart strings. And I had just purchased a box of Post-It Notes from Sam’s Club.  

The Kindle grew cold in my hands.

I pushed it away.

It tried once more, calling out that it only had to be charged about once a week. It could go for hours. It would never fail me.

“Put it away!” I cried. I turned and stumbled from the room. My first encounter with a Kindle had left me trembling and unnerved. I had a feeling it wouldn’t be my last.

(To my cousin-in-law, Kelly, should she ever read this. I realize when I asked to see your Kindle at the family gathering you had no idea what was really going on.)

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Best Friends Forever

Best Friends Forever.

When we’re young ‘best friends forever’ means sleep-overs and giggling fits. It means making forts and having adventures.

In elementary school, someone can become our best friend after one shared experience. A fun time at recess. Or maybe that friend has a huge stash of barbies at their house. A common interest.

We move onto middle school. And some friendships fade and some grow. It means talking about boys and crushes and training bras. It means making a costume so you have to walk around in a box all day in school together, so getting to class and sitting in the auditorium is impossible.

It means private talks and staying up all night.  

And through those private talks and sleep-overs we catch a glimpse into each other’s lives. The not so good part. The part that we hide from most of our friends. The part we’d rather not anyone know – not even a best friend. But it happens anyway.

Through happy and not-so-happy times true best friendships are born. Sometimes we fight. We don’t see things the same way. We make mistakes and hurt each others’ feelings. Because we aren’t perfect. And eventually, the side we’d rather not anyone know about comes through, and we say we’re sorry. And we forgive.

But sometimes friendships, even bestfriends, don’t last. As we grow older and move on to college and then marriage, we grow apart. We aren’t able to forgive and move past. But we never forget.

But sometimes, if we’re really lucky, a best friendship lasts. Through the good times. Through the hard times. Even knowing that the other person understands all about our disfunctional family from childhood and knows all our faults. We’re vulnerable, unprotected. And sometimes that makes us uncomfortable.

Other times, it means we have someone to cry to, even if it’s on the phone. Someone who understands why we are who we are. Someone we can share our fears and dreams with. Someone to laugh with in the times of blessing.

Other best friends enter our life at the same time. But none is the same as the one forged in the fires of childhood. Each one is special. Each one is different. 

Best friends come in all shapes and sizes. Some for a season. Some forever.

Best Friends Forever.

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